It comes to the end. The feeling is not right, and nothing is right. Everything that constantly I keep on believing and to be proud are broken. Everything breaks into pieces. I just can’t take they, who I praise much, indeed are not perfectly perfect.
I’m disappointed. Sorry. Call me fake. But I really can’t stand on this line that getting not right and drive me into wrong path. But it makes me realize. What I did for the last one year is useless. I was expected too much and come to make much imagination then beg that it all happen
I’m fake, sorry. I can’t lie on myself that I’m disappointed by their behave. I can’t agree with them who being love by the lust, who actually don’t know how to stop. I can’t be someone who said “It’s ok, It’s normal thing” in something that isn’t as I’m expected.
I just want to be honest to my self. I just don’t want to make it always happen and then realize that someday I don’t know whether it is right or not. I want to be neutral, not an anti or even become a hard core again.
Late never comes to do something right . But I’m happy; I’m not blind by this illusion Finally the gate to quit from this “world” is slowly opened for me, by me. Thanks God.
I gotta chase my dreams and I hope I’m not too late. Just saying: They’re not gotta be my lastly forever “imaginary one” again. I’m not that into this phrase: Love is Blind. Love should be a feedback one,
The one who you love should be somebody who really WORTH to love, who isn’t do wrong, outta what you believe. Who is as what you expected, how can you love somebody who isn’t as what you expected? It will just hurt you, and love isn’t not about hurting and hurted.
Good luck for you guys, hope Allah will show you the right path, Amin.
Ok, sorry for littering your dashboard with some of my labile post lately. But really, I got VERY BERRY CONFUSING TIME, lately. 죄송합니다, for many times that i never made a good post on this blog, a useful one stuff, i'm managing this blog to write some of my daily thinking, diary (?), what i've been thinking of that i can't post in my twitter account, either it is on my 2nd account, won't be on ny 1st account, even tually on my facebook's notes or my status, i won't. So, here let's go to the point that today I decided to GO. Don't get me wrong i mean go for the thing that keeps making me confuse, labile, on a dilema, and wasting much of my time to think about this. I have more more important things all out there to think about, to solve about, to do about. So i decided to make final decision so i won't think over it again. I will go, no matter what. Even the most shocking one, she , who is there, is not coming as well, I still get to go. She ,who is my fan girl mate here, won't go with me, I still will go. So I will go. Done. Hope everything goes well like I wish before. I promise I won't make another post about this things, hold my promise, 알겠어? Pray for me everyone. Bye :)
Should I go or not? Is it worth if I go? With whom? My time had spend just to think over the decision, whether YES or NO to go. I'm sick of this thing, argh. I had to focus in my school but this thing keep spinning round at my mind, and getting me some tears/i'm not lying.
The really big question is : IS IT WORTH IF I GO?
Ya Allah help me, give me the best answer. This is really suffered my day in the last three days.
I’m fake, sorry.
