JEALOUS

Hmm, long time without telling something in this blog, I feel so much depress with my own. Now, I feel like a weirdo to her. I like her, she's one of my bestie. But now, everything goes bad. Our relationship goes weird maybe it's just me but having some chat with her, having some texting with her seems like PLAIN. No feeling that I should laugh, I should joke. It's just a necessary to reply all her chats. Yesterday is the worse of us, for me. Feels like I hate that she's crawling like a paparazzi. I hate what she did, but I want do it. I know what it calls, It calls JEALOUS of her. I'm being jealous of her looks, her clothes. I'm being jealous of her really stunning attitude. I shouldn't curse her like his, and stop digging to search her bad side. I should do like her, do her stunning attitude. I shouldn't be this and I stop now. She's gonna be one of my everlasting best and I don't want to lose her. I should went back to our best memories and of course stop being this stupid jealous.