My addiction

It comes to the end. The feeling is not right, and nothing is right. Everything that constantly I keep on believing and to be proud are broken. Everything breaks into pieces. I just can’t take they, who I praise much, indeed are not perfectly perfect.

I’m disappointed. Sorry. Call me fake. But I really can’t stand on this line that getting not right and drive me into wrong path. But it makes me realize. What I did for the last one year is useless. I was expected too much and come to make much imagination then beg that it all happen

I’m fake, sorry. I can’t lie on myself that I’m disappointed by their behave. I can’t agree with them who being love by the lust, who actually don’t know how to stop. I can’t be someone who said “It’s ok, It’s normal thing” in something that isn’t as I’m expected.

I just want to be honest to my self. I just don’t want to make it always happen and then realize that someday I don’t know whether it is right or not. I want to be neutral, not an anti or even become a hard core again.

Late never comes to do something right . But I’m happy; I’m not blind by this illusion Finally the gate to quit from this “world” is slowly opened for me, by me. Thanks God.

I gotta chase my dreams and I hope I’m not too late. Just saying: They’re not gotta be my lastly forever “imaginary one” again. I’m not that into this phrase: Love is Blind. Love should be a feedback one,

The one who you love should be somebody who really WORTH to love, who isn’t do wrong, outta what you believe. Who is as what you expected, how can you love somebody who isn’t as what you expected? It will just hurt you, and love isn’t not about hurting and hurted.

Good luck for you guys, hope Allah will show you the right path, Amin.